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Issue: October Newsletter

Celebration! and Upcoming Workshops
By Hanna Maria
To me this newsletter feels like a celebration: We are celebrating endings, new beginnings, and the shifting of seasons (on various levels). We are celebrating life and love in the face of death. We are celebrating Susannah and Ya’Acov’s 30th wedding anniversary. There is commitment, truth, community, growth and change that we are celebrating; and there is the drum that is celebrated, as anchor, resource and vital reminder of connection in turbulent times.

Thank you for being part of this celebration and for adding your unique puzzle piece to the community and the journey of the School of Movement Medicine – as newsletter reader, as dancer, as apprentice, as organizer, as teacher, as professional trainee, and as supporter and participant of any kind. Thank you.

As usual, below you find the places, ways and people to share more dances with, more joy, growth, community, life, love, death and change...

26 October: The Wisdom of the Dancing Warrior with Ben Yeger. Ein Shemer, Israel.
The archetypal energy of the Dancing Warrior connects us with a healthy, connected and empowered place inside ourselves; a place that offers integrity, clarity, strength and courage, a place that knows how to set healthy boundaries and clear goals, a place that enables us to stand up for life and for ourselves and what we believe in. The wisdom of the Dancing Warrior will always teach us that being in and using our power can be done in integral and healthy ways without bringing harm to anyone or anything.
Contact Michal:
+972-522590109; contact@simply-peace.org

1–3 November: The Wisdom of the Dancing Fool with Ben Yeger. Berlin, Germany.
This is an invitation to meet and play with the Dancing Fool in you; the part that embodies wonder, excitement, boundless creativity, innocence, fascination and curiosity (and so much more). We will weave together Movement Medicine, clowning and Drama Therapy to explore this multifaceted part of ourselves that always helps us to not take ourselves too serious and to keep letting go of what we thought we know. Come along for some play, laughter, foolery and fascinating exploration about yourself.
Contact Kathrin: +49 (0) 1797985980; info@kathrin-keller.com

8–10 November: The Power of Choice with David Mooney. Prague, Czech Republic.
With
Awaken the Dancer on 11th November in Prague.
During this weekend, through intensive inquiry and Movement Medicine practice, we will learn how to be much more empowered and conscious in the way we make choices in life. We can be either be making very unaware choices through being caught up in our own stories of the past, or we can learn how to connect with the creative dancer inside us who is able to weave a new and healthy story at any given moment, reminding us of what is really true for us. We will transform stale and repetitive self-limiting stories into alive believes that fit our true nature and thus enable us to make healthy and empowered choices in the now.
Contact Veronika Ziva: +420 727 941 674; veronika@dansea.cz

12 November: Awaken the Dancer with David Mooney. Brno, Czech Republic.
This introductory event takes you playfully through the body that you are and through the nature and wisdom that is in the elements and in yourself as part of creation. Through dancing with the elements we tune into and celebrate the essential intelligence of life on earth, inside and around us. We resourcing ourselves through the vital connection to ourselves and to the nature of life that is us.
Contact Veronika Ziva: +420 727 941 674; veronika@dansea.cz

29 Nov–1 Dec: Out of Ashes with Rosie Perks. Antwerp, Begium.
Out of Ashes. In an embodied and safe way, this weekend invites the dancers to explore our relationship with grief and how it moves in our bodies and hearts. How much we love becomes visible when we grieve what we have lost. This link between the grief of loss and the power of love are part of this safe exploration of Movement Medicine, where participants are invited to journey with their very personal relationship to loss and grief and the love it emerges from.
Contact
Luc: + 32 613 299 20; luc@owc.be

30 Nov–1 Dec: Fire in the Heart with Susannah Darling Khan. Basel, Switzerland.
With the strong and beautiful practices of Movement Medicine, we will spend this weekend dancing through, in and with our hearts. We will learn how to be in movement and remain fluid through all and any emotion that moves through the heart, so that in our everyday lives we can be as fluid and creative through any challenge or emotion arising. Courage and compassion will guide us bring space, freedom and expansion to our heart, so that it can express and feel freely.
Contact Kristin Glenewinkel +41 78 801 32 10; kristin.glenewinkel@gmx.ch

7–8 December: Embodied Leadership and Co-ceration with Susannah Darling Khan. Paris, France.
With Move! Evening on 6 December.
What a great combination – Leadership training through the playful and embodied work of Movement Medicine! This workshop offers a safe and very well guided space to explore various facets and qualities
required in leadership and co-creation, such as congruence, clarity, self-trust and the ability to guide creative team-work. Personal authority together with the skill to co-create makes great leaders and brings these beautiful qualities into your personal life too. Come along to dance, to play, to co-create and to remember that everyone is a leader.
Contact Pierre-Henri: + 33 615 325 816; freemouvementfrance@gmail.com

7–8 December: Jaguar in the Body, Butterfly in the Heart with Ya’Acov Darling Khan. London, UK.
With Move! Evening on 6 December.
Based on Ya’Acov’s recent book and on his own 30-year long initiation into being a shaman, this workshop is an invitation to review your life, to further discover who you are and what is yours to give. You will skilfully be guided to meeting that ‘Jaguar’ inside you that protects fiercely what it loves, and the ‘Butterfly’, that part which is vulnerable, magically beautiful, only coming out when it really is safe to be seen. The workshop will explore the blend of these two parts and challenge our paradigm of separation.
Contact
Alex Hanly: +44 7868 842 219; alexhanly@hotmail.com

12 December CPD Webinar with Ya’Acov and Susannah Darling Khan. Online.
This is a webinar for everyone who has taken or is participating in Movement Medicine Professional Training. It provides the space to hear about and explore subjects or themes, suggested by you or Ya’Acov and Susannah, which are related to your professional work with Movement Medicine. All sessions are recorded and accessible to the subscribers of the CPD webinars.
Contact Roland: roland@rwevents.co.uk

13–15 December: Simple Gifts with Mark Boylan. Budapest, Hungary.
Being the best version of ourselves, standing in our power, connected to our truth, our heart and our body, while being more and more present with our mind, is the greatest gift we can give while we are alive. This workshop supports you in identifying any repetitive patterns and unconscious behaviour that keeps you from being your full self, and that keeps you from the fullest and most healthy expression of who you are. Come along, dance, be gifted while giving yourself in play, movement and connection.
Contact Patricia:
+36705457811; mihalyi.p@gmail.com

13 December: Moving Energy with Christian de Sousa. Basel, Switzerland.
This is a playful and deep introductory workshop of Movement Medicine. It is an invitation to connect with the body, the beat of the heart, the dancing companions on the dance floor, and with the joy of movement.
Contact Kristin Glenewinkel: kristin.glenewinkel@gmx.ch

14–15 December: Dancing in the Golden Flower with Christian de Sousa. Luzern, Switzerland.
Through movement and dance you are invited to meet and tap into the energy of the Golden Flower, the ecstatic grace of wholeness. It is through dance that we are able to move all that wants and needs to move within us – our emotion, our energy, our intuition, our connection to self and
to the source of life. In that dance, we can meet that part of ourselves that is whole, like the Golden Flower.
Contact Marco Unternährer: 041 228 90 10; info@vereindynamo.ch

16–20 December: Returning Home with Ya’Acov and Susannah Darling Khan. Waldhaus, Switzerland.
This annual workshop of story telling, art, dance and ritual, invites participants to reflect on the year that has past and unveil new dreams of another year ahead. Set amidst the stunning mountains of the Swiss Alps, this retreat provides an invitation to return to the essence of who you are, let go of what has been, plant new seeds and nurture your connection to community and to all life.
Contact Roland Wilkinson: +44 (0)1803 762255; roland@rwevents.co.uk

21 December: Solstice Party with Susannah and Ya’Acov Darling Khan. Waldhaus, Switzerland.
This party is welcoming everybody in any body who would like to participate in this fabulous dance celebration. Here, party and prayer meet, and we celebrate the pleasure of living and dancing, the sacredness of the divine and the beauty of life on earth. All income from this event will go to the Pachamama Alliance to protect the Amazon.
Contact
Waldhaus: +41-(0)34-461 07 05; info@waldhaus.ch

This Poignant Moment
By Susannah Darling Khan
This is a poignant moment for me as we approach the beginning of our seventh (and last) Movement Medicine apprenticeship. Don’t worry, it’s not the last Movement Medicine Apprenticeship! Over the last few weeks, Ya’Acov and I have been having our individual “Hello and welcome to the Apprenticeship” skype’s with each of them. It’s been a really deep pleasure to meet my half of all the individuals in this group individually. Having met them in this way, I’m looking forward even more to our journey together.

I feel such a mixture of feelings knowing that this is the last group of people we’ll take through the apprenticeship journey; excited, poignantly sad and warmly grateful. Our commitment to our Apprentices is to be there with them in long term connection, if this is appropriate. There is clearly a limit to the number of people one can realistically and humanly do this with. And this is it, this is our realistic limit, that’s why this is our last Apprenticeship. At the same time I’m excited about the new vistas this opens up for us. Amongst those that we know about are: more time for writing, our new online offering, new learning, time to enjoy going on learning about each other, time for breathing with the land and to go on giving full attention to the professional trainings and the CPD journeys with those Apprentices who take this professional path with us. We will continue to do this work with those who did their Apprenticeship with us and those who will do Apprenticeships with other Movement Medicine Apprentice leaders in the future.

I feel touched and grateful to everything I’ve learnt in the Movement Medicine Apprenticeship journeys, much of it beautiful, some of it challenging, some of it hard and all of if full of learning.

One of the things that we have seen over and over again is the power of community, especially where a community manages to configure a norm of kindness, warmth, acceptance and of welcoming for all and by all its members. When I say this I don’t mean that there is no conflict or difference or friction, but simply a base line of warmth and acceptance. In this kind of community atmosphere each person seems to be able to find the nutrients needed to grow, to heal and to contribute, which makes the community stronger, which makes it more able to support each of its members. This is a medicine circle, and it is powerful, healing and beautiful. We are social animals and to be able to feel this safety to be ourselves with each other is transformative. And we also experienced the pain of when it has not been possible, and we when we have only just found the way through together. That has been humbling and full of learning.

There is one thing that keeps being re-iterated as I go along in life. I keep learning more and more about the liberating power of feeling safe. Through my studies, through my own inner work, through my work with dancers and Movement Medicine professionals, through my collaboration and relationship with Ya’Acov and with my four “mirror master” Exmoor ponies, I’m learning more and more about this simple, liberating power. I am adding ingredients to the way that I teach that are designed to add more cues of real and authentic safety and support. What I am witnessing astonishes me in its gentle power; power to gently unlock people’s dance, people’s creativity, people’s capacity to cooperate in a way which is mind blowing, heart opening and really different than anything I have experienced before.

One aspect of this is to give more breathing space to receive what is. And what is right now for me, is that we are coming into this last of our Apprenticeships. After this we’re passing the baton into the deeply capable hands of Yasia Leiserach and David Mooney, who will be offering the next Movement Medicine Apprenticeship in the Czech Republic in 2021. They will be followed by more Movement Medicine Apprenticeship leaders in the years to come.

I’m aware of how succession is or can be a tough issue in many arenas. One thing I am aware of, in my role now, and connected to the issue of safety, is how vulnerable it can feel to be in the role of the elder one who is letting go and supporting the younger ones to come up. It is maybe easier to see the vulnerability in the role of the younger ones coming up, and maybe harder to see it in the older role as well as the roles of those who are peers and who are not taking that baton. As I now know how it feels to be in all these roles, I feel more and more compassion for those occupying all of them. I’m so grateful to all the supervision we have had in which we have been encouraged not to try to go any faster than our more insecure parts can move, and, when they come up, to catch them in our arms and be with them.

When Yasia and I first co-taught something in the realm of voice work, I was really surprised by the visceral power of my own vulnerability; my fear of not being seen, my fear of not being respected, of being cast aside in favour of the new “star”. It was so important that I could allow myself to feel this and then to share it with Yasia. Yasia was able to hear it and receive it with understanding, tenderness and support. And so we passed through that gateway and went on and it was a beautiful weaving of work together which I am lookging forward to sharing again.

Giving the Apprenticeship baton forward to David and Yasia has already been deep work for all four of us, and I think for many in the wider community too, as we are all pathfinding this way. As other Apprenticeship leaders step into this role in the future, I imagine that they will be supported by this pathfinding and the learning that comes from it and the mistakes we will inevitably make. I thank David and Yasia and the wider MM professional community for giving me and us the safety to let go, through knowing that my and our places as the founders are secure as we shift our roles within the field.

I share all this, not because I want to flaunt my personal insecurities, but because we have found that being real with our humanity, owning the full breadth of ourselves is important for the good of ourselves and the whole. If I strive to present only the image of an idealised version of myself, this creates splits, both inner and outer. Owning more of ourselves, which is of course, always a work in progress, supports the possibility of flourishing, rooted in the solid ground of realness and wholeness.

As we write and explore other ways to share the harvest of our work so far, it becomes more and more clear to us that it’s all about Movement Medicine. We have co-created something which rings true for us in our depths and, though we are shifting roles, we are not leaving. I feel as if we are actually just beginning to arrive on a new level.

I wish much love, courage and support to you in these difficult times of such challenge, confusion, danger and opportunity for transformation,

With warmth,

Susannah DK

Upcoming Workshops with Susannah Darling Khan:

30 Nov–1 Dec: Fire in the Heart with Susannah Darling Khan. Basel, Switzerland.
With the strong and beautiful practices of Movement Medicine, we will spend this weekend dancing through, in and with our hearts. We will learn how to be in movement and remain fluid through all and any emotion that moves through the heart, so that in our everyday lives we can be as fluid and creative through any challenge or emotion arising. Courage and compassion will guide us bring space, freedom and expansion to our heart, so that it can express and feel freely.
Contact Kristin +41 78 801 32 10; kristin.glenewinkel@gmx.ch

7–8 December: Embodied Leadership and Co-creation with Susannah Darling Khan. Paris, France.
With Move! Evening on 6 December.
What a great combination – Leadership training through the playful and embodied work of Movement Medicine! This workshop offers a safe and very well guided space to explore various facets and qualities
required in leadership and co-creation, such as congruence, clarity, self-trust and the ability to guide creative team-work. Personal authority together with the skill to co-create makes great leaders and brings these beautiful qualities into your personal life too. Come along to dance, to play, to co-create and to remember that everyone is a leader.
Contact Pierre-Henri: + 33 615 325 816; freemouvementfrance@gmail.com

12 December CPD Webinar with Ya’Acov and Susannah Darling Khan. Online.
This is a webinar for everyone who has taken or is participating in Movement Medicine Professional Training. It provides the space to hear about and explore subjects or themes, suggested by you or Ya’Acov and Susannah, which are related to your professional work with Movement Medicine. All sessions are recorded and accessible to the subscribers of the CPD webinars.
Contact Roland: roland@rwevents.co.uk

16–20 December: Returning Home with Ya’Acov and Susannah Darling Khan. Waldhaus, Switzerland.
This annual workshop of story telling, art, dance and ritual, invites participants to reflect on the year that has past and unveil new dreams of another year ahead. Set amidst the stunning mountains of the Swiss Alps, this retreat provides an invitation to return to the essence of who you are, let go of what has been, plant new seeds and nurture your connection to community and to all life.
Contact Roland Wilkinson: +44 (0)1803 762255; roland@rwevents.co.uk

21 December: Solstice Party with Susannah and Ya’Acov Darling Khan. Waldhaus, Switzerland.
This party is welcoming everybody in any body who would like to participate in this fabulous dance celebration. Here, party and prayer meet, and we celebrate the pleasure of living and dancing, the sacredness of the divine and the beauty of life on earth. All income from this event will go to the Pachamama Alliance to protect the Amazon.
Contact
Waldhaus: +41-(0)34-461 07 05; info@waldhaus.ch

Ya'Acov's October Podcast
By Ya'Acov Darling Khan
Here is another podcast from Ya’Acov. There is some grounding drumming for support and presence, and some sharing of what is arising, shifting and moving – about the Apprenticeship, his new book that is being birthed, the online dance conference coming up, and the cycle of life that happens whilst we are living and creating.

Use this link to access the podcast. Enjoy!

Upcoming Workshops with Ya’Acov Darling Khan:

7–8 December: Jaguar in the Body, Butterfly in the Heart with Ya’Acov Darling Khan. London, UK.
With Move! Evening on 6 December.
Based on Ya’Acov’s 30-year long initiation into being a shaman, this workshop is an invitation to review your life, to further discover who you are and what is yours to give. You will skilfully be guided to meeting that ‘Jaguar’ inside you that protects fiercely what it loves, and the ‘Butterfly’, that part which is vulnerable, magically beautiful, only coming out when it really is safe to be seen. The workshop will explore the blend of these two parts and challenge our paradigm of separation.
Contact
Alex Hanly: +44 7868 842 219; alexhanly@hotmail.com

12 December CPD Webinar with Ya’Acov and Susannah Darling Khan. Online.
This is a webinar for everyone who has taken or is participating in Movement Medicine Professional Training. It provides the space to hear about and explore subjects or themes, suggested by you or Ya’Acov and Susannah, which are related to your professional work with Movement Medicine. All sessions are recorded and accessible to the subscribers of the CPD webinars.
Contact Roland: roland@rwevents.co.uk

16–20 December: Returning Home with Ya’Acov and Susannah Darling Khan. Waldhaus, Switzerland.
This annual workshop of story telling, art, dance and ritual, invites participants to reflect on the year that has past and unveil new dreams of another year ahead. Set amidst the stunning mountains of the Swiss Alps, this retreat provides an invitation to return to the essence of who you are, let go of what has been, plant new seeds and nurture your connection to community and to all life.
Contact Roland Wilkinson: +44 (0)1803 762255; roland@rwevents.co.uk

21 December: Solstice Party with Susannah and Ya’Acov Darling Khan. Waldhaus, Switzerland.
This party is welcoming everybody in any body who would like to participate in this fabulous dance celebration. Here, party and prayer meet, and we celebrate the pleasure of living and dancing, the sacredness of the divine and the beauty of life on earth. All income from this event will go to the Pachamama Alliance to protect the Amazon.
Contact
Waldhaus: +41-(0)34-461 07 05; info@waldhaus.ch



Tempo
By Hannah Mackay
Here is a beautiful and touching poem ... Enjoy!

Trying to remember to resource myself and take care of myself,
I take my drum into the garden.
Remembering to resource myself and take care of myself,
I take my drum into the garden.
Resourcing and taking care of myself,
I take my drum into the garden.
Resourcing, caring, drumming in the garden.

The tempo of humanity and the tempo of the web of life are diverging.
When Doris Lessing wrote The Golden Notebook she received hundreds of letters
and invited Margaret Drabble to lunch.
I write a facebook post and expect likes within the day, or preferably the hour,
a quick flit readership – tomorrow those words will have all but disappeared.

It was humid yesterday, and blowy;
grey moisture, the remnants of Hurricane Dorian,
that great powerhouse spinning and surging across the ocean,
picking up water and merging it with air.
A week ago it was battering the Bahamas,
tearing down houses, picking up cars and floating them out to sea,
leaving islanders without a refuge, clinging somehow
if they could, to buildings and to life.
As this mighty force of nature blew its way around the world,
in the tempo of humanity there was time for
an emergency response,
after a delay that was inevitable, or unforgiveable,
a mass leaving of islands on planes and ships,
a call for disaster relief, stupid tweets from Trump,
those tweets satirised on the BBC,
a mounting death toll and the beginnings of grief to start to flow.

How can I straddle these two maps of time?
Resourced and caring, to operate at a natural pace
and continue to engage, right hand swiping and resting on a screen,
left hand holding the drum, the frame vibrating against my cheek.

It’s dewy in the mornings.
Apples start to fall in August.
A Painted Lady butterfly year comes roughly once a decade.
This crisis has been building for a couple of hundred years.
And there’s the billion-year unfolding,
continuity and fracture, deep time connectivity of life.

I sit until I smell the honeysuckle,
drum against my chest,
rooks calling, insects passing, September
sun rising above the hedge.

Hannah Mackay, September 2019

Diagnosis Cancer
By Jens Liedtke
Some of you may have heard during the Long Dance, or the webinar, that I am going through a challenging time. Well, that is a nice paraphrase of “Jens might die and we will miss him.” To be clear, I am still living and I am very healthy. Today I am looking back onto six really challenging months and I would like to share a bit about this.

It is interesting how people react when they hear my diagnosis. Often there is something like “call me when you need help.” Well, when you are in this kind of situation it is nearly impossible to call anybody. What is needed is sympathy, kindness, and people who are curious, again and again, about how you are doing. People’s reactions to my condition is one of the reasons why I write this article: to raise questions such as how do we deal with people who have cancer? I think there is a lot of uncertainty and fear. How do we react when we see a woman with a bald head? What is my own fear? What is my relationship to death? Am I prepared and can I leave this body, or are there things left to do, for example, do I have to apologise for something, or set something right?

My own story with cancer started at the end of April this year, when I had one of these routine appointments with my urologist to check my prostate. It was a bit strange because I left thinking everything is OK, but a few hours later, he called me, telling me that there is something wrong and that he has to do another blood test. Well, that was on a Friday, just before the weekend, time enough to get all the pictures into my mind of my father and his problems with prostate cancer, with incontinence and impotence. I am 60 and these are not the things I want to be thinking about. After a few days it was clear, my cancer marker was so high that the measuring instrument of my doc was not able to measure it. 0 to 4 is OK, 10 is really bad, I had 330. Two weeks and a couple of tests later it was clear, impotence is the least of my problems. I have metastasis in a lot of my bones. The cancer is incurable and I don’t know, how much time is left for me.

When I got this diagnosis it felt like my blood was leaving my body. But I am a warrior and so I changed into surviving mode, which meant organising things like finding a mental healer, calling my TCM (Traditional Chinese Medicine) healer, finding the right oncologist, cutting my hair in advance, and informing Ya’Acov today because he is arriving for a workshop tomorrow. He should have enough time to digest this information. This was the first time that I am not the organizer while he is in Hamburg. I was just a helper, organising the sound system. A really strange situation, and I was unable to feel that I am seriously shocked. On Sunday I had a long talk with Ya’Acov. Unfortunately it was not the kind of “everything is going to be okay” talk. It was more like the “face the facts my dear” talk.

After that I spoke with many different doctors. When they saw my tumour marker and that it went up this high within two years, they looked at me as if I was a zombie, dead and still walking around. There was nothing to lift the mood.

In the mean time, I had found a healer and have had a wonderful session with her. I also had my first date with my TCM healer. She also works in a hospital with women who have cancer and can support me with her incredible knowledge. She recommended two books. These two books changed a lot for me. They brought the shift from being a victim to “maybe I can do something to live a bit longer“. This was the beginning of changing all the things in my life that wanted to be changed. That meant, I had to change my habits, my thinking and my nutrition. Well, that’s what I did the last 20 years and sometimes I am really angry that I got this diagnosis anyway. But learning about food and that it can support me, was really interesting.

Even if you don’t have cancer, read the Anticancer Book (Das Antikrebs Buch) https://www.anticancerbook.com/. This is a must because it offers you a different view. The second book is called “Foods that Fight Cancer: Preventing Cancer Through Diet” (Krebszellen mögen keine Himbeeren). https://www.richardbeliveau.org/en/chair/team/richard-beliveau/books/. This is a book where you find the foods you like, and where you learn how e. g. green tea, curcuma, vegetables and fruits can support your health.

Some people say they fight cancer, or they defeated cancer. Well, that’s not my point of view. I had a clear picture of a very dangerous dragon standing in front of me, the kind that is clearly impossible to kill. My viewpoint is more like “what do you need to go back into your cave. What do I have to change?” My opinion is that everybody has this sleeping dragon. So don’t wake him up, I tell you, it’s not fun.

Four weeks after my first diagnosis my therapy was clear. I started to take anti-hormones. Many years ago the normal therapy was to castrate a man. Today the anti-hormones have the same affect without loosing the balls. At the same time I started a chemotherapy. Six sessions with three weeks recovery between each session. After the first session my immune system collapsed and I got a serious pneumonia. The short version: two weeks in hospital, a lot of antibiotics (call me the antibiotics tester), a lot of very painful side affects, and for a period of nine weeks I was too weak to receive the next chemotherapy. The good thing was, the tumour marker was falling in these nine weeks from 330 to 3.3, after just one session. The rising and the falling of the tumour marker in this way is very unusual.

During the pneumonia, there was one day where I thought “well, the pneumonia is so special and I am not getting better, it must have been made just for me.” After more than 20 years on my spiritual path, it was clear to me what to do. I called some healers to help me and did a lot of work with them within three days. At the end I had a feeling of “I am loved.” Very simple, but it changed so much in me that I cried for another three days. This was the beginning of the end of my pneumonia.

Four weeks later it felt like my lungs were OK, but I was too weak even for a short walk. I had lost all my muscles strength. So it was time for some discipline. Since then I have been walking every day through the forest, increasing the distance. Meanwhile I am stronger than before the chemotherapy and all side affects are gone. I am very glad that I have found this point some weeks ago, the point between resting, waiting for better health and going into action. Now there is one chemotherapy session left.

Today, all this feels like a long painful transition ritual. A time where I had to be a part of the flow in the river of life, without resistance, but with a lot of surrender, and with sometimes stating clearly what I want. I am sure that there is a higher purpose. And even if I die, in these past months, I have carved out more of the one I really want to be.

All my spiritual work did not prevent me from getting this diagnosis. But, to get through this time, it was very helpful to have had the experience of 20 years of dancing, a lot of rituals like digging my own grave, having a burial ceremony and talking to death, working with my ancestors, practises of shamanism and nearly 30 years of Taiji (Tai Chi).

Also, this journey was only possible with the support and the sympathy of so many people: People who called me because they wanted to know how I am and just being curious. People who prayed for a good outcome. Thank you all so much.

I am really curious to know the purpose of this experience and what the future brings. Is there a future? Am I able to care for my self and my body? Maybe it is just a preparation for the next incarnation.

Finally, I would like to thank all my teachers for preparing me for and supporting me during this journey.

Jens

Susannah and Ya'Acov's 30th Wedding Anniversary
By Susannah and Ya'Acov
Dear all,
We recently celebrated our 30th wedding anniversary. Here are some extracts from our posts on Facebook about it. Thanks for all the support and love we’ve received over this anniversary. We feel it, appreciate it and are supported by it. At the same time we’ve found ourselves challenged to look at how much we live up (and not) to the story about where we have got to as a couple. All of that is very useful, thank you!

Much love,

Susannah and Ya’Acov

Thursday 3rd October, Susannah: ”This morning I heard myself say to a neighbour: "on Saturday we'll be celebrating our 30th wedding anniversary". She said: "That's more or less how long I've been alive! How does that feel?" I said, "Oh my god... I don't know... it sounds like a really long time, like we must be grown up!" I'm still trying to wrap my head 'round the mystery of time and space, and, most importantly, loving this man, my incredible husband, and what we are experiencing together as we grow side by side and get to know each other and ourselves more. Long term relationship is a wonderfully rigorous teacher. I'm very grateful that we have stayed through the rough patches (and there have been some intense ones) and now are in another level of harvest.”

Wednesday 2nd October, Ya’Acov: "On Saturday, Susannah and I will celebrate 30 years of marriage (33 together). Amazing grace. It appears that the best things in life, like safety and intimacy, the growth of trees, and dreams coming into manifestation, take time.”

Saturday 5th October, Susannah and Ya'Acov: “It's our 30th wedding anniversary today and we wanted to pass on our gratitude for the warmth our community has been expressing towards us as a couple. Thank you, it's delightful! And we wanted to share an encouragement, something like; "It's worth it to love and it's worth it to be real." In our experience, it's worth finding the people you can be real with and finding the courage, care and skill to be real with the people you are with and likewise support them to be real with you. Through that, you can grow together, by making it safe to acknowledge both the bigness and the smallness of who you both/all are. When the whole spectrum can be welcomed, the light can shine.”

Online Conscious Dance Conference
By Susannah
Dear all,
It’s with great pleasure that we will be live online at the first ever Conscious Dance conference, hosted by Amara Pagano and Pier Paolo. We will both be giving sessions individually and together with others in a couple of panels.

Amara Pagano and Pier Paolo have brought together a wide range of founders and teachers of different conscious dance modalities, many (though not all) of which grew from the fertile soil of Gabrielle Roth’s work. From the roots of her work has grown a rich flowering tree. As we have just passed the anniversary of her death, I want to thank Gabrielle for everything she taught me in our 18 years together, and long afterwards, which lives and breathes in me and my living and in my teaching. In Movement Medicine we have constellated a different weaving of everything that is important to us, but, nevertheless, our time in the cauldron of the 5 rhythms with Gabrielle remains foundational.

I congratulate Amara Pagano and Pier Paolo and wish you both and all the participants and presenters the very best enlightening and enlivening experience. It’s a wonderful and important vision that you have continued to serve to bring us together. Thank you!

Susannah’s individual session is at 10 am UK time on Monday 4th November, with the theme of “The Dynamic Dance of Awareness, Interoception and Letting go”. It is to do with the transformational movement between receptive and active energy in our dance practice.

Susannah’s panel is about “Science and Conscious Dance” and will be on Monday the 4th at 6pm UK time and we will, amongst other things, be talking about poly-vagal theory and interoception.

Ya’Acov’s individual session is at 12pm UK on Tuesday 5th November and is entitled "The Inner Shaman’s Dance - An Enquiry into Shamanism in the Conscious Dance Field". This is presented as an interview, followed by a guided journey and question and answers.

Ya’Acov will also be present for the closing panel and session at 6pm UK time alongside Arjuna, Amara, Pier Paolo and Lei'Ohu Ryder and Maydeen Ia'o.

You can sign up to the conference for free here.

All the very best,

Susannah & Ya’Acov Darling Khan



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